No Bag LimitLast night I shot a wedding with
Benjamin Porter. About ten minutes into the 20-minute ceremony, the rain began. It didn't stop for two hours.



It was a nightmare for the couple. For me, it was solid gold. Like
Sam Abell says, bad weather means good photos.

Everyone handled it well, especially the bride and groom, who called off the formal portraits for fear that we'd all get killed by lightning. Having the sense to forfeit some once-in-a-lifetime--and very expensive--photography to keep everyone alive bodes well for the marriage.
It's rare to shoot wedding photos that
find a place in the DarkTopo. I can't bring myself to be one of those photographers that blogs about each wedding, and about how honored and humbled they are to be part of Bride and Groom's BIG DAY, and how the newly-weds are most special couple ever, at least until it's time to impress a new client.
The point of DarkTopo is to tell the truth. So, three truths: I
am honored and humbled to shoot most weddings, some couples
are very special, and some clients
do need impressing. I'd never let the last truth interfere with the first two.
More truth: The divorce rate is 50%. The "BIG DAY" is a brutal, hellish experience for pretty much everyone involved. Flowers wilt, honeymoons end, and we're all left to nurture the soil of our relationships for ourselves. The lucky, wise and hard-working succeed, everyone else fails.
And that's how it should be. Marriage and wedding photography were meant to be difficult: If it were easy,
everyone would do it.
The High Lonesome HillLast month I rolled out to the woods to shoot a wedding with
Larry White.

Larry's the one on the right. On the left is Mariah, who we both knew from way back in the day when we all inhaled the same darkroom chemicals for four years. Unlike Larry and I, Mariah shows no lasting effects. Here's an older picture, from
what now seems like a lifetime ago:

Mariah's documentary work with a senior bowling league was some of the best photography I've ever seen. I still tell my students about it. She's also among the most matter-of-fact people I've ever known, which is about the best quality to have in a darkroom colleague. In the dark, it's best if your friends don't pull punches.
One night, I was standing in the hall with a dripping wet print, and Mariah came through the revolving door.
"What's wrong?"
"This guy's shirt," I said. "I can't make it black."
"It shouldn't be black."
". . . Oh."
And then she went back in, completely unaware that she had just blown my fixer-addled mind. It was the first time I'd ever understood the Zone System in any practical way.
Five years later, here's her wedding band:

So it's a surreal thing, watching people go through it. Some are more graceful than others. The most graceful are those who keep a grip on who they are underneath the costumes and rose petals, and they are also the easiest to photograph. Point a camera at a bride, and everything--the large-bore lens, the blinding flash, the white-knuckle grip--says, "OMG! You're wearing a wedding dress!"
And the graceful ones say: "Of course I'm wearing a wedding dress. It's my wedding."

And that's when the wedding begins to slip into DarkTopo territory, where I'm not afraid to capture things as I see them. Or, rather, things are the way I see them, and it's okay for me to capture them. Of course I know what I'm doing. I'm the photographer.









If you're going to tell the truth, you have to admit that there are moments worth capturing because they were good. These are the times you'll remember later, not because they were beautiful or true, though they may have been, but because they were good.
Those of us that spend our lives on the left side of the histogram struggle to admit it. But if you can't confess that every now and then you find a piece of real beauty in front of your lens, you're not telling the truth at all. Sometimes, it shouldn't be black.

On the other hand, sometimes it should, and nothing ever changes: